Love Mechanics

Chapter 27. Déjà vu 2.

 

(Vee Vivis)

 

After the raspy voice, which I can barely comprehend, finishes talking, his moist mouth clamps with mine. The bitter taste of alcohol that hasn't faded away helps fuel the passion in us both. The slender hand wraps around my neck as the tall figure that's kneeling on the bed moves closer to me. The sucking sound fills the room, recalling past feelings.

 

The same degrees and angles, the same room and place. The difference is that this time I don't push him away. I assist the person kneeling not to lose his balance, while leaning my face in more to feed him kisses. Whether it's stemming from his intoxication or his actual yearning for me, I want to go back to being that opportunistic bastard who takes advantage of him when he's fragile.

 

"Uhh.." The moan from his throat sounds out, along with the handsome face that veers sideways to gasp for air. I push myself away to pant and look at his face. Mark blinks his eyes and looks up at me, his slim hand still placed firmly on my shoulder.

 

".."

"You're so freakin' mean," Mark utters, and locks eyes with me.

 

"I'm sorry," I answer, and move my face in to plant a kiss. I pull his neck closer and press my body against his.

 

No matter the reason, I want to love him right now. We kissed for a long time, but it's certainly not as long as the time I've been missing him. Now that he's right in front of me, I'd be a fool to let him go again. We might quarrel again in the morning, or he might become even angrier at me upon coming to his senses, but it's something I'm willing to accept. I'm going to give in to my heart right now, because of the eyes and words of the unconscious one in front of me.

 

"Umm..." The sound that comes out of his throat is accompanied by a tug which forces me to throw my body weight on top of the one below me."

 

Let me apologise to you, Mark...let me love you from now on." I say near the lips of the one lying beneath me. Mark's tears flow down from the corner of his eyes, and I lean down to soak them up with my kisses.

 

My lips move from his eyes down to the side of his cheeks, then to his jawbones. I don't miss any spot that my mouth passes, making sure to leave a kiss wherever it hovers—the kisses are to express my apology and my love. I move my mouth down to the corner of his pretty mouth, sucking the tender sweetness from it, before pulling away to look at the one lying down and staring back at me.

 

"P'Vee.."

"Yes."

 

"..' Vee." Only my name comes out of Mark's mouth. The sound is embedded with a mix of emotions, from pain and torment to yearning.

 

"I'm sorry, my dear. I'm sorry for what happened in the past." I clamp on the lips that call out my name with agony, kissing to let him know that things will be different from now on.

 

I move my lips down to his neck and kiss his Adam's apple, stopping at his collarbone. It's curved deep inside that I don't want to imagine how much Mark has hurt himself in the past. I slowly kiss and unbutton his shirt, pressing kisses onto his chest. Mark flinches a bit, no differently from the previous times I've experienced.

 

"Uhh~" The one beneath me sticks out his chest in response, squirming slightly. This reaction makes me wonder who else he's done this with while I wasn't with him, and where he did it. When I saw him embracing that Tew kid earlier, it made me feel even more jealous.

 

"Just be mine from now on." I lift my head to say to the one whose body and face are red. He looks at me in return, before reaching out his hand to rub my head.

 

"I miss you like crazy..." These words make my heart swell. The feelings of disappointment or the sarcasm I want to shoot at him all fade away. I kiss Mark's stomach and move my mouth all over to create rose-colored kiss marks.

 

"Umm...smack!" The sound of sucking warm skin rings out. It doesn't make me feel shy; it makes me feel good. Mark slowly slips his hand inside my mop of hair. He squeezes it gently according to his mood, which, in turn, affects my mood. I plant a kiss on him over and over again, till the younger one moans out louder. I move my mouth down and stop at his navel, folding the bottom one's legs up and kissing that belly area hard.

 

"Uhh~"

 

"Umm..." The harder I kiss, the louder the moaning and panting. I pull away to observe my masterpiece, which is now contorted into some kind of weird shape, though I swallow my saliva upon seeing it. I gradually remove my shorts, which have been in the way, and slip my hand down to unfasten Mark's belt. The hazy consciousness of the one below me, perhaps, enables me to do such things to him without getting any resistance.

 

"Uhh.."He shifts his body slightly before looking at me groggily. His pretty lips softly clench, till I have to slide my finger in.

 

"I'm here now, Mark," I say, as I use my finger to rim along his tender lips lightly. Mark slowly opens up his mouth and nibbles on my finger. I stick my finger in while lowering my body to pressure the one beneath me. I kiss his heaving chest, and clamp my mouth over his small brown nipples to suck them whole. I feel the suction he's making on my finger, until I have to open my eyes and look up at the one who's possessing it in his mouth. It doesn't hurt me, but rather makes me feel itchy and horny. Importantly, it makes me feel good...

 

"Ahh...Uhh." I suck hard on Mark's pretty-coloured nipple till the kid raises his chest and moans out loud. I flash him a smile from the corner of my lips and pull my finger out of his mouth. I slither my hand down and stop at his pretty-coloured thighs, caressing them in circles and alternatingly pressing them and releasing the tension from them. I move my face towards the pretty mouth and soak up the clear liquid that drips from it as I withdraw my finger. I kiss Mark at an angle, while he cooperates by opening his mouth for me.

 

His warm, hollow mouth, which I haven't explored for a long while, is still as sweet as I can recall. Even though the bitterness of the alcohol lingers, I don't sense it. Rather, I can only taste the sweetness and tenderness of the one in front of me.

 

"Uhh~" Mark squirms his face away and moans out loud once I touch his hot rod of meat. I caress it and squeeze it softly until it enlarges to fit fully in my hand. Mark sinks his fingernails into my shoulder and lifts his face to pant out. The bulging veins on his neck make me kiss that area, nibbling on them before moving down to nibble his broad shoulders.

 

"PP'.." Our first time occurred here. That time, I tormented him, but this time I'm going to make him feel the happiest.

 

I lower myself down to his midriff and place my mouth over the lump of meat in front of me. I kiss it from top to bottom, returning up before putting it whole in my mouth, deep down to the end of my throat. His size doesn't let me fit it all in my mouth, so I use my hand to reach the parts my mouth can't go—the exposed part—which irritates my eyes.

 

"Ugh! Uhh...P...P'Vee." The trembling moans that try to call out to me make me briefly glance up at him, though I refuse to release him from my mouth. I use one hand to slide down and touch the pretty-coloured lobe. As I press down gently, I can tell that Mark is having contractions, while moaning out incomprehensibly as usual. I set free the big lump of meat from my mouth and move down to the pretty-coloured crevice, pressing a kiss down there, which makes Mark flinch and moan out loud.

 

"Ah...Ahh~" Instead of the raspy voice making me feel annoyed, I want to hear that sound on and on. Following my mouth touching, I then stick out my tongue and lick it, which makes the one in front of me squirm.

 

"P'uhh, l_ahh.." I stick my tongue deeper and deeper inside, while Mark contracts his buttocks to suction my tongue in. I use my hands to lift his buttocks so I can taste him even more fully.

 

I pull myself away to observe the channel that's moist with clear liquid, licking my lips and caressing my own rod a few times. I slowly insert myself into Mark's fissure. He tenses up, making it impossible for me to push myself further.

 

"Mark, let me show you some love." I plead and lower myself to kiss him on his bright cheeks. "Let me love you, Mark."

 

"Uhh~" I insert myself fully as soon as he loosens himself up. I remain like that for a moment, until I feel that I can't bear staying still anymore, and also sense that the bottom one feels the same way, so I gradually move my body in and out.

 

"Umm." I moan as Mark's inner body absorbs me inside, in the same manner as I feed him my meat. Our rhythm becomes increasingly stronger until Mark and I pant by each other's sides.

 

I place my head onto the broad shoulder of the one at the bottom, while Mark leans his body into mine. His body movement makes me have to push my meat inside him again, eliciting raspy moans that ring out not far from my ear, prompting me to look up. Hazy eyes look back at me, as if to bewitch me into falling into the dark hole that are those pairs of eyes. And they succeed in doing so.

I move my face up to suck on his panting, agape lips. I feed him sweet kisses to console him, and make a promise that from now on, everything will become better. I pull in the one who's lying on his side towards me, and we end up facing each other. Our connecting joint remains as it is, and I slowly move my waist, while Mark grabs hold of my shirt.

 

"Uhh-" Mark raises his face and moans out. I lift my head to check on both of us, who are moving into one another.

 

"Umm. Ahh..." I lay my head against Mark's shoulder, though my eyes are still fixed on the same place. My moving in and out of his body is a testament to the fact that I'm with him in the present.

 

Mark's hand slides down to his midriff. He places his hand around his hard rod and starts stroking it. I move the hand that's wrapped around his pretty waist and lead him on till he lets go of his hand and allows me to stroke it in his place.

 

"P'Vee..." The soft moan comes up beside my ear, making me smile faintly. I lower myself to press my nose against his cheek, which is wet and moist with sweat, before kissing his lips in quick succession.

 

"Yes, Mark."

 

"Uhh~" He bites into my shoulder once I up the pace. I feel pain, but that pain turns into ecstasy. It's so passionate that I cannot help but ram myself hard into Mark, till he moans out non-stop.

 

"Uhh. Ah...Ahh!" The last moan is replaced by tensing up and panting. I'm no different from Mark, completely unleashing myself into him. I moan with ecstasy I haven't felt for a long time, turning to kiss the mouth that is lightly panting one more time, before sliding my hand to help finish him off, before withdrawing.

 

We lie down panting side by side. I pull away a bit to get a clear view of the one beside me. Mark's hazy eyes look at me before slowly closing. He must be so exhausted, since I am as well. I kiss his pretty forehead once more and whisper for him to have sweet dreams. I'm not sure whether he can hear me, but I feel good to be able to say it to him.

 

I simply couldn't leave the kid alone in that pub. Hanging out with Lily and Tee is no different from being there without them, since they're both such big flirts. After seeing off Ice Cream at her dormitory, I came back to the pub. The image I encountered was of a pissed, drunk and unconscious Mark being leaned on and caressed by that kid Tew. I was already in a prickly mood, and I immediately plunged into dragging Mark out, eventually bringing him back home with some difficulty. 

 

I think back on the events that transpired last night and let out a deep sigh. I probably wouldn't know what to do with myself if I let him get away again.

 

I get up to bring some water to wipe Mark down. I slip on a pair of my own boxers to replace his stained ones, then take off my musky shirt and put on just boxers. I can't be bothered to take a shower right now. I lay myself down beside Mark. I look at the one who's sleeping on his front side, and let out a soft smile. I press a kiss against the gaunt cheek and place my arm around his waist. We're together now. And I've just given him happiness.

 

The sunbeams that shine through the window into the room make me turn my face away. I snuggle into the firm shoulders of the one I cuddled last night, taking in his fragrant body scent. Once I'm fully satisfied, I get myself up.

 

Mark is still fast asleep in the same position. I lower myself to peck him in the cheek one time and pull myself away to smile at him. Even though he doesn't see me, and even though he isn't aware, I still smile at him.

 

"Uhh..." The raspy voice and shifting body make me look down. Mark opens his eyes groggily and blinks rapidly. He furrows his brows upon seeing me in front of him. I clench my lips in preparation for the barrage of offensive insults that are about to be unleashed. He wasn't conscious last night, so it's natural if he were to think I'm a bastard upon waking up.

 

"I, um..last night.." My voice fades back into my throat as soon as Mark raises his brows. I swallow a big gulp of my saliva and give it another go.

 

"You...shit.." I let out a sigh upon hearing the curse. "My voice..." The raspy voice speaks out slowly. I made a stupid face, thinking that he was cursing at me, when in fact he was cursing at his own voice.

 

"Oh...'I'm going to get you some water." I say, and quickly get out of bed. I walk out of the room and come downstairs to look for warm water. Luckily, Mom had already woken up and boiled some water in the kettle, so I cooled it down by mixing cold water and bringing it up to Mark.

 

"Thank you." He says, and drinks it quietly, as I also look at him in silence.

 

"um..."

"Is there only water this time?"

 

"Hmm?" I raise my brows and make a voice in my throat upon hearing his strange question.

 

"Last time, there was boiled rice, too." My brain immediately clicks as soon as he reveals his thoughts. A smile slowly unfurls on my face.

 

"You're not gonna scold me? Or be angry? Or complain?" I move myself closer and ask Mark.

 

"No..." He looks down and answers quietly.

 

"Really!?" I let out a loud exclamation of delight. I grab hold of Mark's shoulder and shake it.

 

"But it doesn't mean I forgive you, though." He says, prompting me to let go of his shoulder.

 

"What do you mean?"

 

"You miss me, and I miss you too. But I'm also still mad at you." Mark says, and looks up at me.

 

"You mean...you want me to make it up to you?" I question him.

 

"Isn't that something for you to figure out?" He looks down and says softly.

 

"Okay, okay, that's fine. I can make it up to you for however long you want. I like making it up to my wife." I lower myself down to sit near him."Who's your wife!?" He looks up and scowls at me.

 

"Well...at least you addressed that question to me respectfully. You could've easily put "the fuck" in that sentence." I nod and say softly.

 

"You want me to use foul language or something?" He asks and hands the glass of water back to me. I shake my head before bringing the glass over to the study desk.

"Why do you give in to me?" I ask, and place my hand on the bed. I end up putting my body over him, while he uses his elbows to prop himself up so that he doesn't lie flat on his back.

 

"Well.."

 

"Hmm?" I let out a small sound from within my throat and leaned my face into him.

 

"Back off... first."Mark pushes my chest and turns his face away. I give him a handsome smile and shift my body sideways to lie down on the bed.

 

"Tell me...why do you yield to me?" I ask and place my hand over the thighs of the one who's sitting up, to embrace his waist.

 

"Who said I've yielded?" Mark looks down at me, then straight ahead, like before.

 

"Okay...then why do you suddenly talk to me now?" I shoot a new question at him, by which he looks down at me again and falls silent for a long while.

 

"Well!.."

"Ya miss me, huh?" I ask, upon seeing that Mark isn't saying anything.

 

"..."

"And you also feel tormented when you're being sarcastic with me, right?" I move closer and look up at him.

 

"..'

"When others say that I'm suffering, you also feel bad, right?"

 

"..Yeah." His answer makes me smile. I lift my head into his lap and wrap both of my arms around his waist.

 

"If the relationship ends but we're both in pain, then it should be ended," I mention, and look up at Mark.

 

"It's just that you didn't trust me as before, but it doesn't mean you stopped loving me," I say, before locking eyes with the oval pair of eyes that are looking back at me. The pair of eyes that convey his feelings to me. The eyes that express that decision time is approaching. I hope the decision he makes this time is best for both of us.

"Well..then you should try to regain my trust again." The sentence that comes out of that pretty mouth makes my eyes sparkle. Mark looks at me, bewildered, before lifting my head away from his legs.

 

"Why the bewildered look.. I'm just happy that you're giving me a chance." I say, and flash him a wide grin.

 

The younger one veers his face away, so I move in to place my head on the back of his neck. "From now on, I'll do everything to gain your trust. I'll express my love until you confess your love to me. I'll give anything for you to become mine again." I say, before planting a kiss on the back of his neck.

 

"Just do as you say you will," Mark utters, prompting me to tighten my embrace.

 

"Thank you."

 

I bring Mark down to eat. Yoo seems stunned upon seeing Mark. He looks at me and then to the tall kid beside me, before shutting his mouth when I raise my brows at him. Mom, who's walking in from the front of the house, stops in her tracks upon seeing Mark. The same goes for my dad, who nearly drops his glass.

 

"Hello, the one beside me greets them first. My family members raise their hands in confusion to accept his wai. 

 

 "Aren't you gonna grumble, Mom? We have an uninvited guest among us today." I say, and push Mark towards the same chair he once sat in.

 

"How'd you trick him to come back? Why did you decide to come back to him?" The pretty woman directs the first sentence at me, while the second is to Mark.

 

"Um..."

 

"So from now on we won't be seeing a person making a sullen expression as if the world's about to end, huh?" Dad says, and looks at me.

 

"Your parents...don't mind?" Mark turns to smile at my mom and dad, before turning back to whisper the question so that only I can hear.

 

"Nah. They see that I love you so much, so they allow it," I whisper back, and observe as his ears turn red.

 

"Don't you think you're giving in to him too easily?" Yoo queries.

 

His question ruins the atmosphere I've been trying to build up. My brother really has destructive powers whenever he opens his mouth.

 

"Well, I haven't given in yet.."

 

"Have you been forcing him against his will again?" My dad raises his voice and asks, prompting everyone, including Mark, to look at me.

 

"No..! just..."

"Just what?" Mom's deep voice sends a chill down my spine.

 

"Um.. I haven't gotten back on good terms with P'Vee yet." Mark's voice draws everyone's attention towards him.

 

"And?"

"Mark's given me a chance," I say to Yoo.

 

"Oh..and here I was thinking he'd already forgiven you. Geez...he's just giving you a chance, but you treat it as if he's forgiven you already." Yoo says as he tosses a chicken bone onto my plate.

 

"These sons of mine, why make such a mess!" Mom utters and reaches out to slap Yoo's arm.

 

"I feel annoyed by his behaviour, Mom." My rascal brother tries to exaggerate his pain, making me cringe.

 

"If people are meant to be, it doesn't matter how easy or difficult it is; they'll end up being together." My dad glances at Mark before looking at me. I smile and raise my brows at him once.

 

"Right, Dad? And the ones who can only look from afar, look from afar." I utter, looking at Yoo.

 

"He's just giving you a chance, but you're already being a smartass. I won't console you if he gets away this time." He says, and continues munching on his chicken irritably.

 

"I won't let him get away this time." I lower myself to whisper to the one sitting stiffly beside me. Mark looks at me and veers his head back like before.

 

"Have some of this Tom Yum soup, dear. Although I made a little bit, it should be enough to fill up your stomach. I want to scold Vee, but today's a good day, so I'll hold my tongue.

 

"Why's today a good day?" Mark asks, after scooping a portion of Tom Yum soup onto his plate.

 

"Well..it's the day that you two got back together. So from now on, I won't have to see my son's sulking face anymore. How wonderful!" Mom says, and smiles at Mark, while the one beside me opens his mouth ajar.

 

"Mom...Mark just said we haven't gotten back together yet." I corrected her.

 

"And I just said that if it's meant to be, then couples will always end up being together." My dad says, and flashes me an arresting smile. The one who's gripping the Tom Yum soup ladle lowers his face more and more, not seeing how delighted my smile is to my dad.

 

Just him coming back to talk to me makes my family and me this happy. I can only imagine how lovely it would be if we actually got back together. As people say, regaining others' trust is difficult. But whether it's simple or difficult, I have to do it for the sake of the one I love and our beautiful love. I will take full advantage of the opportunity I've received. To express my love to someone whom I'm confident about. No matter how easy or difficult it may be, I will love him no matter what.