Love Mechanics

Chapter 18.  Expression of love

 

[Mark Masa] 

 

I come to my senses once again upon hearing the alarm. I drank too heavily last night that I can barely remember anything, not knowing even when I came to sleep in the room. I look at my phone, which shows that it's 5 am, and let out a big sigh. I try to get up, but can't, since something is wrapping my body. I look up to see P'Vee, who was already looking at me.

 

"Ya gonna turn that off yourself, or shall I do it for ya?" The sharp eyes look towards me calmly, along with the whisper beside my ear. I pull my face away before reaching out to turn off the phone that's beside me, then turning towards the other person, confused as to how he's here holding me in his arms. I recall paying for this single room so that I could sleep alone.

 

"Confused...about what?" He turns his body around and looks at me while asking.

"Well, you're here."

 

"Since last night," P'Vee says. "I carried you all the way up to the room, so I just decided to sleep here with you." He shifts his body before placing his arm on my belly.

 

"..." I remain silent, looking at him with dazed eyes. I'm trying to tune my brain and process my thoughts. I get it that he sent me off here. Of course, I can believe that. But then why didn't he go back after that?

 

"Hmph....what do you mean by that look of yours? I can't sleep together with you or?" He reaches out to my chin and playfully nudges it.

 

"Don't fool around...I haven't said anything yet." I swipe his hand away and look in another direction.

 

"Your eyes reveal your thoughts," P'Vee says, before placing his hand on my chest and moving closer to me. "The air conditioning's cold, lemme cuddle to get your body heat."

 

"Cuddle my ass! I gotta shower, otherwise I'll miss the bus." I move away, but can't get away from his grasp. I glance at the clock and let out a sigh.

 

"How about we go back later?" The handsome guy turns and asks me.

"Can we?"

 

"Why not? Or do you have something you gotta do?" He asks me, to which I shake my head.

 

"Not really." The classes are finished, the exams have been completed, so if I head back then I'd just hang out in my dorm room or go back home.

 

"Then won't you stay another day?" P'Vee says, cajoling with his eyes.

 

"I've got no problem, but what about your friends? We came as a group, so don't they have to do a head count before going back?" I ask, prompting him to take his phone out and make a call. While waiting for the line to be picked up, the handsome face turns towards me. He places his phone in his neck area and uses his arms to pull me in. He seemingly does it unintentionally, his actions so smooth that my heart starts beating faster. 

 

"Yeewa...I've got a really bad headache." I frown at the deep voice that's speaking slowly, as if he's so fatigued. "No need to come over...I'm just calling to say that I don't think I can make it...cough, cough." He adds coughing for good measure. 

 

"Your junior line's sick too, so I'm just letting you know that we'll head back later ourselves. Talk to you later." He then hangs up the phone, supposedly not wanting Yeewa to ask any further questions. I'm also worried, since this senior line of mine is so observant.

 

"Done." P'Vee flashes an arresting smile at me upon hanging up.

"Liar." I chide him and frown back.

 

"As long as it means getting to spend time with you. Even if she called me a fucker just now, I'd be fine with it." He says, while my body freezes. Is he willing to do anything just to be with me? I wanna just kick him into the ocean.

 

I'm not sure how long we lie there together, but the sunbeams that shine through the curtains make me open my eyes and wake up. I lift the arm that's on top of me and sit up. I look at P'Vee, who's still sound asleep, and let out a smile. Although it's been just a few days since he cleared up his status with me, I hope things continue this way.

 

"Uhh..." I look down at the person whose arm is crossed over the bed. I giggle when he raises his brow upon not seeing me, so I reach my hand towards him, and he touches my finger and cuddles his face against my hand. I look at the one who's in a fetal position like some kind of shrimp, and shake my head softly.

 

"Too much," I say tersely, prompting him to open his eyes and look at me.

 

"If I'm too expressive, you complain; if I don't express myself, you take issue with me. So what do you want me to do?" He mumbles as his face still brushes against my hand.

 

"How about just right. You know how to do that?"

 

"Nope. If I love someone, I really fall in love..." My face heats up, as if he's confessing his love to me, even though he's merely using a descriptive sentence to explain the type of person he is. But my thoughts go far beyond that, and my expectations soar, even though he's just treating me nicely.

 

"I'm serious." The deep voice wheedles, prompting me to turn to him. His handsome face presses against my hand, while his sharp eyes look at me.

 

"Well...yeah."

 

"Hmph! You're blushing." He says, before moving closer. The mop of jet-black hair is placed around my thighs.

 

"Move away," I say softly, while pulling my hand away, but he holds on to it.

"I like it..."

 

"..." My heart beats harder, while my brain cannot process any words. Upon locking eyes with him inadvertently, it's nothing less than suicide.

 

"I like it when you blush."

 

Oh, my heart! All I can do is curse at my beating heart. It's squeezing so strongly that I really fear for my life. With only a few words, coupled with the sight of his eyes that reveal his true feelings, it's enough to put me in a right mess. He didn't even say that he likes me, just that he likes...when I'm blushing. So this must mean I like him...?

 

"Mark..." The deep voice utters out once again, along with something heavy that comes atop my thigh. I look down and see P'Vee and his sharp eyes wheedling me. Wait...is he wheedling?

 

"What?" My raspy voice is already hoarse, so it seems that I can't speak out clearly. But my stutter arises from the fact that I gulped my saliva upon seeing his eyes.

 

"I'm hungry." The answer comes out of his shapely mouth, which makes me raise my brows.

 

"Then go down to eat."

"I'm hungry...for Mark."

 

"..." Ya fucker...

 

"I didn't eat last night since you were drunk. So I'm starving this morning." The deep voice utters slowly, along with his wheedling eyes, as if craving for something, something I know fully well what it is. Something that makes me bite at my lip and think hard before eventually deciding to... lower myself down to him.

 

We clasp each other's lips slowly, merely sucking and pushing against one another, without any transgression. He remains on my thighs, but lifts his head so that we can kiss more comfortably. Both of his hands swing up to wrap around my neck and press me down. I adjust my face to the proper angle and place my arms over his entire body. We remain kissing in that position. Softly, strongly, occasionally pulling away to catch our breath before continuing.

 

"Uhh..." He pulls away when I let a sound out from my throat. His mouth is not far from mine. In one split second, I see the corner of the handsome guy's mouth turn upwards, gradually going up more and more, until I have to pull myself away. But I cannot sit up properly, because he's grabbed hold of my neck.

 

"You wanna eat me too, Mark?" The deep voice utters softly as he extends his body upwards to kiss me in quick succession before pushing away. One of his pretty hands releases its grip from my neck and caresses my cheek. "It's all red, hmm~."

 

I lower myself down to punish the guy who's fooling around once more. Besides..it's better to let me kiss that mouth of his than for him to spout out such nonsense about me. His words and actions really have such a big influence on my heart rate.

 

"Uhmm..." He moans from his throat before pulling away. "You're such a good kisser."I turn my face away from his seemingly offhand words, though they are uttered loud enough for me to hear.

 

"Enough?" I ask, after I come back to my senses.

 

"Ask yourself." He says, before placing his head onto my stomach. His naughty hands pull up my thin pyjamas, and he digs himself inside to nibble at my muscles gently. It is such a tender and sensitive feeling that I can't help but tense up and hold my breath.

 

"Ah...ahh..." I moan as he uses his tongue to lick around my belly button. His moist tongue twists around in that area before he pulls away and continues to kiss me.

 

"You....uhhh..." He messes up his kissing rhythm and moans out softly when I slip my hand under his shirt and play with the small nipples on his firm chest.

 

He pulls himself away before standing up and pushing me flat on the bed. It's good that the bed is wide, so even though I twist or turn my body around, I won't fall off. I notice he's feeling content, since he flashes a smile when he pushes me down. The slim lips that flash out an arresting smile clasp onto my mouth.

 

We kiss over and over again, slithering our tongues to exchange our sweetness till we are satisfied. He moves from my lips to my cheek. I don't know why, but he focuses on my cheeks a lot.

 

"Uhhh..." I moan out in protest when he teases me by sucking my cheek into his mouth. It's not that I have puffy cheeks or anything. I immediately veer my eyes towards him, though he merely smiles back in response.

 

"You've gotten too skinny..." 'Vee suggests, his hand slithering into my pyjama shirt and caressing around in circles, making me tense up once more. His handsome face plants into my neck before whispering a request to nibble on it. So I...duly oblige, leaning my neck towards him willingly and allowing him to nibble it.

 

"P'..ah...uhh." My voice becomes raspy as the shirt is removed from my body. I have no idea when he started taking it off, nor when I allowed him to do so. All I can feel now is the moistness on my chest area and the pressure on my midriff.

 

"Why you..." He curses softly, after pulling himself away to admire his work. I don't know what kind of eyes I look at him with, but the eyes that look back nearly give me a heart attack. When he sticks out his tongue to lick the clear liquid around the corner of his mouth, I take a huge gulp of my saliva.

 

"P'..."

 

"I'm so freakin' into you." The trembling voice sounds out softly, before moving downwards. He lifts his eyes to look at me before kissing my stomach, as his strong hands gradually slip in beneath my pyjama pants.

 

"Uhh...Uhmmm." I moan in response to the gentle touch of his hand, which is massaging me softly, inviting me to float away until I cannot help but moan out in pleasure. P'Vee lifts his head to look at me, before moving up to kiss me again and again.

 

"Ummm." The deep voice echoes softly in his throat, indicating his satisfaction as I draw my arm over his broad back, rubbing it and slowly sliding my hand in.

 

"Ah...uhh..."

 

I sound a protest and stop all my actions upon feeling something penetrating inside my body. I don't know when he brought the gel, nor where he took it from, but all I know now is that his cold finger is moving in and out of my warm and tender passageway.

 

"Sexy." The raspy voice echoes out beside my ear. My face immediately heats up, and probably turns red. The pain that was there a moment ago withers away, in its place thrill and ecstasy.

 

"Ah...uhhh." P' Vee increases the number of digits and the speed of movement. He presses down on some place inside my body, a spot which induces me to flinch and moan at length.

 

"You're killing me..." The deep voice chides, mixed with panting. The heated breaths waft against my cheeks. He kisses me on the side of my cheek once more, before pulling away to look at my face. "I wanna enter you so badly..." I want him so badly right now as well.

 

"Uhh! Ah...slow..." I softly push the thighs of the person trying to pin me down, in order to tell him to do it more slowly. P'Vee looks at me before picking up the gel bottle. He withdraws himself so I can catch my breath, before squeezing the gel on himself and rubbing all over.

 

"Ah..." The handsome face raises up and moans out once his body comes into me. I bite my teeth from the increased tightness. The gel helps us more than the last time. The thing that's throbbing inside me right now serves as evidence.

 

"P'...gently, please." I plead to the one above me.

 

Frankly speaking, I'm not so weak as to not be able to handle him, but I don't want the sex this time to be like previous times, which was full of vengeance, pity, or consolation. Although there's no expression of love or fondness, I want the sex this time to have that feeling.

 

"Ummm." P'Vee moans in acknowledgement, as he takes his sweaty shirt off. He then gradually moves his body... though I can sense his every motion.

 

"Uhh~." I moan out, as he withdraws himself fully before inserting deep inside me once again. I try to open my eyes to look at the one above me, and see him smiling back at me. The pretty hands that were holding my hands a while ago now pin them down. He clasps his hands against mine, before thrusting more forcefully.

 

"Uhh...uhmmm." He moans out and uses his hand to wipe away my sweat. His pretty arms withdraw from my hands and focus instead on my waist. One hand is placed on my belly, while the other wraps around my body and moves along in the same motion as his thrusts.

 

"Ah! Uhhh, ah...uh..." My moans are jumbled and I don't know how my body writhes, nor how my face looks. All I know is that when I open my eyes, I see him smiling thinly at me, making me feel happy. The eyes that look at me are different from the previous times...and I like the way he's looking at me now.

 

"l...uhm...Mark." I lift my hand up to hold onto his broad shoulder when he calls out my name. I draw the other person in for a kiss, and he duly obliges.

 

"Uhh...ah...P'Vee, uhhh, P'Vee..." I moan as he increases his thrusting speed. His size is big enough to pressure the right spots inside my body. When he pushes himself deeper and firmer, I cannot help but moan out louder.

 

"I like...uhmm...when you moan out my name." He says, before kissing me at the corner of my mouth.

"Ahh...P'Vee." I let out a sound once again when he inserts his body fully inside me and remains in that position, before pulling out and pumping back in once more. He repeats this motion many times, till I have to bite my lip to suppress the elation.

 

"I like it when you make your mouth like this." The slender finger presses softly against my mouth. "I like it when you look at me blearily like this." His sweet mouth presses against my eyelids. He remains there for a moment, before pulling away to allow me to look at him with my hazy eyes once again. The handsome guy on top of me draws a thin smile on his face.

 

"P'..." I want to say that he's handsome, that he's sexy, and that I really like it as it is right now.

 

"I like it when you look at me like this, your eyes that have only me in them..

P'Vee says, as he works on my rod before thrusting himself in and out as before. I moan out softly each time he presses inside my body.

 

"Ah....uhh...I like it." The handsome face that I'm attracted to lowers himself towards me, while I lift my face to meet his. Our lips brush ever so slightly, and he remains in that position.

 

"I like you..."

 

"Ahh..." We release our ecstasy at the same time after he finishes his words. He smiles out, even though our lips are almost against each other. He gently nibbles my lips as our bodies remain connected.

 

"Mark...I like you." He says near my ear, before kissing my cheek and gradually withdrawing. His love juice flows out as soon as he pulls away.

 

I'm not bothered by the icky fluids at the moment, although it's messy. I'm not worried that he didn't use a condom, either. I don't think about the cleaning up part, nor do I believe that what transpired during the past hour is called sex. To me, it is a declaration of love...

 

The past hour was a time which I felt happiest. It's been such a long time since I've felt so fulfilled. It's strange...we didn't use all night, not even several hours, but it makes me think that I can feel good throughout the entire day.

 

"Smile...keep on smiling. I've stopped for now just to let you take a rest, not for you to lie down and look at my face." P'Vee, who's lying down beside me, speaks out. His ears become more reddened when my eyes lock onto his. We're still lying naked, since he said we don't need to put our clothes back on.

 

"P'Vee..." I call him softly, before lifting my eyes up to look at the one sleeping higher than me. The sharp eyes that were moist with sweat blush a slight shade that I can't help but smile.

 

"Wh...what?" The deep voice stammers. His sharp eyes look at me, and I smile back at him.

 

"You said you like me."

 

"Well...yeah." He says, before veering his eyes away. His reddish ears now turn a clear shade of red, while the blush on his face intensifies, making me feel heated as well.

 

"Really?" I ask, and move closer to him. No part of our bodies touch. We're simply under the same blanket and are close to each other so much...that I can hear P'Vee's heartbeat.

 

"Yeah." The deep voice replies from within his throat, along with the stern eyes that look at me as if to prevent me from teasing him further.

 

"Ya blushin'?" But I...like it so much when he's like this. I like it when he feels awkward in this manner.

 

The one beside me shifts his body. His hands swiping back and forth as if to try and pull the blanket up, but when his pinky finger brushes me a bit, he pulls away. It seems he dares not turn sideways, and veers his eyes up towards me once again before frowning.

 

"Why you..." He curses out softly, while I chuckle.

 

"Why are you that bashful?" I ask, as I grab hold of his ice-cold hand, even though his hand has been under the blanket.

 

"Well...your eyes are..." He says, as he veers away from my eyes. "When I said so, your face was..." I don't know what kind of facial expression I made, but when I see P'Vee's gesture and think along, my face feels heated as well.

"Whaddaya mean?" I ask, before pulling my hand out and gently rubbing my face.

 

"Well, it's true. Don't you ever make a face like that to other people. I'd be so jealous, I'm tellin' ya." He quickly mentions.

 

"Jealous under what status?"

 

"As a person who likes you." I thought I'd be the one to mess around with him, but he ends up messing with me. PVee replies as soon as I ask, his sharp eyes looking towards me to confirm his statement.

 

"P'...it's unfair," I say softly, before pulling the blanket up near to my chin. He smiles before reaching out and using his arm to pull me in.

 

"Hmph! Ya hungry?" He doesn't tease me any further, but merely laughs in his throat and asks me softly.

 

"No..." I have no desire to eat anything whatsoever. I don't feel like moving, nor going out anywhere. Simply put, I just want to cuddle with him like this.

 

"I'm full too." The whisper beside my ear makes me flinch. I glance at the person who moved away just a while ago, and feel an urge to twist his ear. So you've already forgotten that you were blushing just now?

 

I don't know when I fell asleep. It may be due to accumulated fatigue. The warm strokes that rubbed against my head also made me feel so comfortable that I dozed off. When I wake up, I see PVee semi-lying beside me, one hand clutching his phone, while the other picking up snacks that are on his belly to eat. He's still shirtless, though I find that I'm wearing an inner shirt and a thin pair of pants. I stare at him in silence, and it seems he senses that, as he hands down the phone for me to see.

 

"I'm jealous, man," P'Vee utters as I read Tossakan's status.

 

His caption clearly indicates his ownership over P'Bar. As if the photo of him kissing P'Bar is not enough, the many comments, including from the one beside me, keep on jeering them non-stop. I chuckle softly in my throat before handing the phone back.

 

"They also haven't gone back yet," I say to P'Vee after reading.

"Yeah, that's right...so I'm jealous."

"Why do you have to be jealous of them?" I ask, as I laugh in my mind at the one making a messy face while looking at the phone.

 

"We're in the same place and doing the same things. But how can he seem so happier than me?"

 

My face heats up upon hearing the words doing the same things. I can assume why they both haven't gone back yet. Last night P'Bar was wheedling so much, so it's only natural that Kan would give in to him.

 

"Are you a child or something? This is such a trivial matter." I say, before slowly sitting myself up. Lying down for long periods can make one cramped up, and I want stretch my body to release the strain, though I can only manage to stretch my arms.

 

"Take a photo of us."

 

"Hey!" I cry out as P'Vee comes closer, scoops up my back, and embraces me close to his chest.

 

My face is clearly shown on the slim phone he's holding. My hair is an unkept mess, as it's getting long and I haven't had time to go have it cut yet. My eyes are a bit swollen from having just woken up. But a bit in my case means that my eyes can barely be seen, since they're so small. My lips are also swollen from being sucked on many times. The camera pans down to my neck area, on which kiss marks can clearly be seen. 

 

I glance at P'Vee and feel immediately inferior, since he's so good-looking despite having just woken up. His eyes pry the camera as if to find a good angle, his lips slightly swollen. His hair is also a bit messy, but in a way that makes him look good. Vee places his sharp, chiseled chin on my shoulder and fully extends his arm out, before...

Snap!

 

"P'Vee...no, don't upload it." I'm really not ready to be a news item with him.

 

"I won't upload it. It's just for fun." Is my face like some kind of ornamental fish? I want to ask him that, but when I turn around I can only flinch, as our faces are so near to each other. Our eyes are locked, our noses brush against one another, and our lips nearly touch.

Smooch!

"You're such a tease." He kisses me in quick succession, and utters softly.

 

"N...no. I...wanna see the photo." He smiles out before pressing his nose on my cheek once more and handing me the phone. I want to delete it upon seeing it, but I can't bring myself to do so. My face is in a daze compared to his handsome face, with his eyes happily closed.

 

"Let me take a photo and upload it. We don't have to reveal your identity."

"It might become a big story." I complain softly.

 

"I want the guys who are eyeing you realize that you already have someone whom you like." He says, making my mouth open ajar. 

 

"If you don't wanna make yourself a big story, then don't use my account, we'll use yours instead." He suggests.

 

"You're being serious?" I ask him back as if not wanting to comply, though my hand is already reaching out for my phone.

 

"Hey...whaddaya mean by that? Or are you not gonna be serious with me?"

 

"I told you not to be silly," I utter, as I kiss his lips softly. I intend to pull away, but he instead pulls me in and sticks out his mouth to kiss me more, brushing against my lips and softly tugging at them, as if to tease and lure me into his trap. I want to say to him that he need not lure me... as l've already become a willing victim without him having to entice me any further. We exchange kisses for a long while, long enough for me to float adrift together with him. I nearly do more than this, but suddenly the snap! Sound rings out once again, making me flinch.

 

"Beautiful," Vee says simply, after seeing the photo in my phone.

 

I have no idea when he took it, nor when he schemed this, but he's pressing rapidly on the phone and giggling a bit, before raising his brows in my direction.

 

"Why is the like button being pressed so quickly?" He hands the phone over to me.

 

My latest status is me with my back against the camera, leaning my neck to do something that as I think about, makes me blush. From other people's perspective, it's unclear that we're kissing, but in my mind and memory, I'm fully aware of what I'm doing when the photo is snapped. P Vee cannot be seen in the photo, only his arm which extends out to take the picture. That's enough to shed light on the captions, though.

 

Masa Mark

5 mins

 

Let the photo describe both of our feelings.

 

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James, it's read James not James: Ya serious?

Futer ForFun: The hell are ya? Not comin' back with us. And whose hand is that?

Kamphan, whose house has a lamp larger than a tank: So you’ve confirmed your place in hell.

Por Pla Slanted Eyes: Who the hell's that? Winnie the Pooh James,

it's read James not Ja-mes

Mini Hart: have a new boyfriend?

Yewaa: Ya bastards!

Futer ForFun: Ya know something we don't, auntie? Yiwaa

Yiwaa: Who ya callin' auntie!? Slap your mouth right now! 

Futer ForFun 

Kamphan, whose house has a lamp larger than a tank: If ya tell me, I'll buy ya drinks. Yiwaa: The kid's askin' for it. 

Tonkla Tonkla: I'll leak the news!

 

"It's a big story already." I turn to the other person who's also looking at his phone.

 

"Let it be, then. Like I care?" He raises his brows and asks back.

 

"Can you take it?" I reluctantly make eye contact with those sharp eyes. Society is indeed becoming more accepting, but not everyone accepts it readily. Especially if it's this person, many people might not be able to take it.

 

"If I weren't able to take it, then I wouldn't have said that I like you."

 

..."

"Mark...if I say I like, then I like. If I say I love, then I love. You've witnessed it in the past. I haven't said it up to now because I wasn't certain, but now that I've expressed myself to you, it means I've become certain. I've thought about it, and I've made the right choice." P'Vee utters slowly.

 

His sharp eyes looking at me with every word he expresses, indicating his sincerity. His slim hand reaches out to lift my hand for a kiss.

 

"P'Vee..."

 

"I know I've been a fool, and that I've mistreated you. If you want, I can apologize to you a thousand times over. You can make me do anything to make up for it, but I ask just for one thing..." P'Vee says, and raises his hand against my cheek. 

 

"Give me a chance."

 

I smile uncontrollably upon hearing him utter those pleading words. I move in close to the one in front of me, before wrapping my hands around his neck and pulling him in for a kiss. We've kissed many times before, but it's strange how I don't get tired of it. The moist tongue that's swimming in my mouth has probably explored every nook and cranny there is, though that doesn't make us want to stop kissing. As the more we kiss...the more we feel pleasure.